I can’t even begin to imagine the emotions that must be running wild during this time. I was recently matched with a birthmother and she is due in July. We are very excited.
I am so sorry that you went through depression. I hope you are doing much better now. My only thoughts are that the birthparents chose you because they knew that you would provide a loving home for their child. They wanted you to provide the baby with laughter and smiles. This is a very courageous decision on their part. Therefore, please don’t feel like a “thief”. The next time you think or feel that way, just think about how the birthparents would like you to be. If you are happy and creating a wonderful environment for the baby, the birthparents will feel more secure in that they made the right decision. For you are able to provide the baby with a great home, family, and friends.
Remember, everything happens for a reason. You should feel good about being able to provide a great life for a baby. You should also feel good about being able to answer the birthparents’ prayers. Keep in mind, they wanted to ensure the best life for the child.
Best wishes to you.